My Stupidity

Me and my stupid desire to be well-known is the one who should be blamed for my most brainless action this very afternoon. It was the gathering to talk about this year’s dorm project which was held at 1 pm inside a gazebo. It shouldn’t have been called a gazebo if I must say. I thought gazebo was supposed to be made out of wood and seemed to be a cool place to hang out in. This gazebo was nothing like it. It’s better to be called a porch because for one thing it’s not from wood and it’s an elongation of the building. Moreover, they put some tables and seats in it.
Enough for the criticism, because apart from whatever it has been called there’s no relation to what I’ve done…regretful and embarrassed, that’s exactly how I feel right now. For me and—once again—my stupid desire to be well-known had brought me into this mess.
At about one thirty, me and my friends arrived at the “gazebo” where this so-called-meeting took place. We were a bit late due to our curiosity of the library and got a bit lost on the way home. However we were still welcomed to join the meeting which was apparently just starting.



We discussed few topics like who will be in charge of running the projects and an open recruitment for them. There were two projects opened for discussion, the closing ceremony and the social service. Already they had three candidates for each project so we only had to pick one of them to become the chief project. It didn’t took very long for us to come up with one name which we all agreed to be the most competent person for the job he/she had to handle well. Khalis was chosen in charge for the closing ceremony and Aziz for the social service.

Being chosen as the person in charge, they instantly open a session for recruiting more members in their team. The first recruitment was held by Aziz. Many many people raised their hand to show supports; an agreement to be his member. I personally wasn’t really interested to become one because I was concerned about how much time I have to spend handling such event. But still my will to become someone and not just a no-one had pushed me to at least be more active and become a part of something. So I decided to join the next event, Closing Ceremony. Although I’m still not sure what was the event like or should be, I didn’t really care, but now I deeply do.
After Aziz had finished recruiting, it was Khalis’ turn. First he opened recruitment for an event organizer. When he asked who was willing to voluntary becomes his member I instantly raised my hand. To my surprise, no one else did, it was only me and a boy with the initial M which I was frankly a bit afraid of. Sometimes he can be a bit aggressive or maybe it’s just his accent that gives that kind of look. Either way, I don’t really feel comfortable working with him. So I quickly lowered back my hand. Unfortunately it was too late for me. A friend already saw me and because no one else raised their hands despite the fact that Khalis desperately looking for someone to be the event organizer, she pushed me to raise my hand again. There was nothing else I can do. I was—tragically—chosen to be the event organizer while I have no clue what to do =.=. The scariest part is that now I have to work with this M boy to organize this event. Hiks. This was all due to my stupidity of wanting to be someone T.T